The Present Dilemma...

Currently, I am undergoing a state of dilemma...I am utterly confused, but the cause of confusion is hitherto not known...

Abb Iss Talaash Mein Hun Ki Main Apne Rone Pe Hans Rahaa Hun Ya Bewajah Hansne Pe Ro Rahaa Hun !!!
(Now, I am searching for an answer whether I am laughing at my cry or crying at my inapt laughter...)

The Sleepless Feeling...

The Innocent one in me gets this reply when going to knock at the door of sleep:

Neend Ke Paas Ummeed Liye Jaa Rahaa Hun Main, Par Duur Se Tou Darwazaa Band Dikhayii Detaa Hai !
(I was going with a ray of hope towards sleep's house...But saw that the door was closed !!!)

What I interpreted...

Baba Bulleh Shah ji has said:
Mandir Dha De, Masjid Dha De, Dha De jo Kujh Dhaendaa ;
Par Ikk Naa Dhaween Dil Bande Da, Mera Rabb Dilaan Vich Rehndaa...
(Do not bother for the temple or the mosque...Literally the lines mean Destroy the temple and the mosque...Destroy whatever else you want to...means do not care for whatever else you don't want to...But do care for a person's heart...feelings...as He resides there...)

Well, the magnet wanted to convey something else maybe...What I wrote was:

Dil Mein Khuda Rehtaa Hai Yeh Tou Sunaa Tha, Par Ham Tou Dil Ko Khuda Maan Baithey !
(I had heard that He resides in the hearts...But I gave my heart His stature...)

Appearance did Mislead...

My appearance actually did not favour me...Rather, went against me as:

Unke Dekhe Se Jo Aa Jatii Hai, Munh Pe Raunaq ;
Wo Samajhte Hain Ke Beemar Ka Haal Achaa Hai...
(Seeing Him brought an expression of definite relief on my face and He thought that the ill is relieved...)

The Interrogation...

I just could not post for the past few days as I asked The Magnet this question:

Jab Ke Tum Bin Nahin Koi Maujood, Phir Ye Hungama Ai Khuda Kya Hai ???
(When there no one present save you, Then what is this going on, Oh Lord !!!)

But...Still haven't had any reply...

Help Me, The Great One !!!